Holding me back

I have tried to manage my free time but somehow it is hard to divide all my school work and non-school related. Sometimes I think I have a lot of time and I don't take advantage instead I do things that I like to do like watching a show, making food or go out. There are times where I can sit and do homework. But one of the things that I notice is that I'm always thinking about if what I did was right or wrong. Self-conscious is my not my friend, I would say. I worried too much about little things. Another thing, is that I don't like planning things in advance because if I don't accomplish what I wanted to do, I become frustrated. Frustration brings more stress to my list. Lastly, is getting sick. When I'm sick I have a hard time concentrating. All I can think about is how I feel and going to sleep. Will see how this week goes and the next because I think I'm getting a cold. Bright side of this story is that its Wednesday; the week is almost over!

Free write

I enjoy writing free write because I can release some of my stress. It allows me to see what thoughts are taking over. I don't like writing papers so free write is always welcome.

I want to shared something that I encounter during my service with foster youth. I'm doing community service through the YES house, so every Saturday we have service with foster youth. Our program doesn't really have have a structure; our main focus is to provide support, care, safety, and most of all a place when kids can have fun. We have worked with the same kids over the past years and this past weekend we have new kids. The new kids were very isolated and didn't want to talk to us. Some of the answer were, "Why do want to know, is none of your own business, or would you get in trouble if we run away." Good thing, my fellows volunteers were not intimidated. I was surprised at first and I wonder if we had cross some boundaries but I realized they were maybe scared or they don't know how to deal, when someone do care about them.